The Roots of Kundalini Mediumship

This work is called Kundalini Mediumship for a couple of reasons.  One is to honor the tradition of my first teacher Baba Muktananda, whose tradition was the direct transmission of kundalini from guru to disciple.  That transmission happened to me when I was a kid.

I added the word “mediumship” because I at a certain point I realized that working with spirits and energies was also something that happened at the same time that the kundalini started opening.  Working with spirits and energies was not really a part of his tradition, and I had to learn about that aspect from other teachers.

Some Hindu teachers talk about the difference between God with form and the formless God.  The formless God is pure infinite energy and consciousness.  It is beyond any of our understanding and incorporates past, present and future all at once. The God with form is all the spirits, gods and goddesses that are energy but also have characteristics, emotions, and personalities. The story is that because the formless God is so hard to relate to as a human, God has also chosen to appear to us in forms that we can relate to. These are the beings at the basis of many religions— the Hindu gods and goddesses, even Jesus. These gods and goddesses occupy a middle ground between our limited human self and the infinite God that exists beyond everything.  They are like a bridge that help us to remember that we are connected to and a part of the infinite.

Mediumship allows us to embody the gods and goddesses. To work with them, we have to begin working through our personal, family and cultural traumas and repressed emotions.  What started happening to me as a teenager was that the kundalini started clearing out some of my personal and family karma and allowed me to connect to theses higher vibrational energies. It was never a one shot deal though— it’s not like I had a couple of spiritual experiences and then all my work was done. Far from it. The process of clearing out the debris and then connecting to these gods and goddesses is a pattern that continues to this day.

Another part of my process was that I recognized that my personal healing was connected to others’ healing. I started getting the message that if I was going to grow and heal, I had to do healing work on other people. Kundalini Mediumship was born from that message.

The word kundalini can be uncomfortable for people. There are many misconceptions and issues around kundalini work and they fall into two distinct categories.  

First, there is the fact that kundalini transmission comes out of the guru/disciple relationship. Within that relationship (especially here in America) there has been a tremendous power imbalance and a lot of abuse from that imbalance.  This happened with my guru Muktananda, but it happened with a lot of other gurus as well.  The guru is someone you obey without question. He (or she) is God incarnate.  How are you going to say no to a guru’s demand?  How are you going to call out a guru who abuses his power?  If you look at what happened within Muktananda's tradition (called Siddha Yoga) it took some really courageous people to speak out. His institution responded in the same way as the Catholic church and other powerful institutions that protected abusers— deny, cover it up and intimidate those speaking out.

When I started doing healing work on people and could feel the kundalini moving through me and into other people I went through a crisis.  I didn't know how to handle it because the only template I had for kundalini transmission was the guru/disciple relationship and I knew I wasn't a guru or perfect being.  But there was something else I relied on for guidance— what Muktananda called the guru principle.  The guru principle is the force inside of us that guides the process of the kundalini awakening. It’s our own internal compass and our guide.

It’s taken me many years of self work and inquiry to get to this point. When I really started diving into Siddha Yoga, I thought I had found the answer, the TRUTH. Then when I heard about Siddha Yoga’s dark side I thought I had to throw everything out. But what I really discovered was that there were certain elements of the Siddha Yoga philosophy that resonated with me and some that didn’t. My job was to take what I needed and throw out the rest.

I believe that the guru worship in Siddha Yoga was in many ways a test— a test from God to see if I would really devote myself to finding my own internal guru or if I would give away my power and self knowledge to someone else. It can be really hard sometimes to really trust myself, especially when my ideas go against culturally accepted norms. But that trust is what allowed me to work with this energy on other people. Instead of a guru, I view myself as a facilitator. I share my journey and struggle and I want to help people connect with their own guru principle.  There is a tremendous empowerment that happens when we connect to our own internal guidance— when we recognize that there is no authority outside of ourselves that we have to obey.  But to do that we really have to examine our own wounds and shadow— all the places we’ve hidden and suppressed inside of us.

The second issue around the kundalini is the warning that the energy is inherently destabilizing and can cause all sorts of problems like demonic possession, mental illness and things like that.  While I agree that the kundalini is a tremendously powerful force I don't think its accurate to say that it causes any of that.  Mental/emotional/spiritual issues are caused by our own karma-- the kundalini may accelerate things that are already there but it won't cause them to arise from nowhere.  It will definitely find and open up the darkness we have inside of us, but as long as we are prepared to face our own demons and we’re really willing to heal then we have nothing to worry about.  That's a big commitment though.  For most people it takes something like a healing crisis or spiritual emergency to really force them on this path.  But of course these kinds of crises are exactly what the spirit uses to bring us back into alignment.  Sickness is really just a message from our spirit that we need to address our emotional, energetic and physical issues. Eventually whatever demons we are trying to avoid will come after us anyway. So my philosophy is to confront them now rather than later.

 

Zombies and Vampires: A Kundalini Mediumship Perspective on our Cultural Obsession

By Lindsay Wilkinson

 

Question of the day: Why are we (modern America) so absolutely, entirely, overwhelmingly obsessed with stories about zombies and vampires?  Admittedly, I’ve watched my fair share of True Blood and The Walking Dead, and I’m always asking myself why these gory images are so compelling.

The answer I’ve come to…the zombie and the vampire are both manifestations/symbols of a part of the collective unconscious that is literally permeating every part of our modern life.  The vampire is a symbol of manipulation, seduction and persuasion at its worst. Where is this symbol reflected in our outer world?  I see it in every fiber of our capitalist infrastructure, every marketing scheme, every advertising campaign, and in our relationships with others.  Ever had an “energy vampire” literally suck the life out of you at work or at home?  It happens in small ways every…single…day.

We are both manipulating others (the vampire) and being manipulated (unwitting victim) on a daily basis.  This perpetrator/victim cycle is reflected in our work relationships, friendships, family dynamics, everywhere.  It’s no wonder that we become obsessed with the overt and sometimes comically obvious symbolic images and storylines that these underlying archetypes represent.

I’m not saying it’s necessarily a bad thing, it’s just an unconscious thing.  The more that we can bring these patterns of behavior and interaction into our waking, conscious life, the more opportunity the psyche has to heal from these hidden wounds.  Which is essentially why these images and archetypes exist.  They point to a particular type of energetic pattern that is part of the universal human experience.  It is universal for humans to feel seduced by a person, a product, a food, an idea…anything can trigger this energy in us.  It is also universally human for us to play a part in manipulation or control over someone else.  It can be very obvious, like trying to sell something to someone, or a subtle suggestion or innuendo, and anything in between.

What now?  Let’s assume you agree with me that the Vampire image is an unconscious symbol of the human experience of manipulation/control and victimization.  If we become conscious of this pattern in our lives, what then?  The first thing is to recognize this pattern in the outside world (like seeing it in The Walking Dead), the next step is to start to recognize this pattern in our own life, (like trying to get your honey to buy you something or feeling victimized by your boss), the final step is to integrate this pattern into your life and begin to make conscious choices around these energies when they pop up. Maybe that looks like saving up for that thing you want instead of trying to get someone else to buy it for you, or maybe you don’t need it in the first place.  Or instead of feeling taken advantage of or victimized at work, you schedule a meeting with this person to talk about the dynamic or quit your job and do something else.

Why is this effective? Because you literally begin to step outside of an unconscious pattern that’s controlling you (another example of the Vampire energy pattern), and integrate your need for control or to be a victim and make choices (maybe making the same choices, maybe not) which could literally change the course of your life.

Okay, now let’s talk about Zombies.  What are zombies? Completely unconscious. What do zombies do? They consume.  And guess what?  WE are unconscious consumers, all…the…time. We consume everything in sight!  Food, television, iphones, clothes, ideas, politics, news, the list could go on and on.

So, let’s digest (haha) the symbolism here.  Zombies were at one time human (aka conscious), and have degenerated into monsters (our inner demons taking over) and consume only conscious peoples’ brains…leading these new recruits into the same state of monstrous unconsciousness.  And the cycle goes on until there are no conscious minds left and we are left with a post-apocalyptic world of hedonism and chaos.

The other interesting thing about these stories is that there are essentially three groups of leftover humans…the fighters or heroes (think Michonne in The Walking Dead), the manipulator or tricksters (who take advantage of the chaos in order to gain control for themselves), and the quitters who either take themselves out or become listless and depressed, thereby adding to the unconscious group of zombies.

I think that most people have felt all three of these energies in the face of adversity at one time or another.  There have been times in my life that I have fought against the tide of pain and chaos that seemed too overwhelming to confront, I have been the person to take advantage of a chaotic situation, and I have definitely had times where I have given up and allowed the unconscious pattern to continue controlling aspects of my life and my behavior.

So, we are all zombies, all fighters, all tricksters, and all quitters.  Why is The Walking Dead so compelling?  Because often, in the face of an unconscious pattern we are all four of these archetypes/energies at the same time.  We would love to see ourselves as the perpetual heroes, but there’s a part of us (either unconscious or conscious), that lives out the other three patterns as well.

Now that we know we’re all zombies too, what do we do with this information?  We just start to track the pattern in ourselves and others. These patterns of consumerism are repeated in our lives in a million small ways every day.  For example, people often eat on the go.  We have a short lunch at work, we are on our way somewhere, we are exhausted at the end of the day.  So instead of being with our food, smelling it, tasting it, enjoying it, we just CONSUME it.  Quickly, thoughtlessly, and then we’re on to the next thing.  For some people, eating quickly and unconsciously is fine…they make a conscious choice to do it, it doesn’t affect them or whatever.  But for most of us (myself included), we get to the end of the meal, and either we didn’t enjoy it, we’re tired from stuffing it down, we get bloated and uncomfortable…something happens that we wish hadn’t.  So instead of being conscious humans eating a meal, we become unconscious zombies; consuming and moving on.

The vampire and zombie archetypes are here and now.  Every age has different patterns, stories, and archetypes that come to the forefront of humanity and these are some of the strongest and most common patterns we are dealing with in this century.

As a doctor and self-explorer, these energies are very important for me to keep close in my mind. On a daily basis, I come across patients who have literal eating disorders (zombie) and are struggling with what and how to consume.  And other patients who feel sick and victimized by their own bodies, or the medical system or their family or job (vampire).  So for me, these patterns are very real and are very much affecting mine and my patients’ health and well-being.

That alone is enough for me to continue to work with these energies in a conscious way.  I work on these patterns by recognizing them in myself and others (energy tracking), and by doing bodywork to release them from my physical being (Kundalini Mediumship bodywork). And like I’ve said before, there are a thousand, thousand ways to work on these energetic patterns, it doesn’t have to be the way I’ve chosen.  But I would encourage you to take a moment the next time you watch Interview with theVampire or iZombie, to find those unconscious, unintegrated places in yourself, and get to work!

Please feel free to comment, question, disagree, like or whatever this post and please share with anyone who you think would benefit from this type of work!  Finally, full disclosure, I recognize that my own projections and biases and patterns will come through in my writing, just know that I am “consciously” working on it!

From numbness to pain

I had someone come to see me a couple years ago with intense numbness in her left hip.  I don't know if it was from an accident or fall or if it just came on for an unknown reason.  So I start working on it and there was an interesting healing process that happened. Her hip went from numbness to an intense burning pain.  It lasted for a couple months and it was CONSTANT.  She was a little freaked out about it, but it was pretty clear that that was her healing process.  She kept coming in each week, and we kept working.  When I worked on her the burning sensation got more and more intense, but after a couple days it would get a little better.  And that was the process until finally the burning stopped and her hip returned to normal.

I brought her story up today with two different patients who came to see me for more energetic/spiritual work.  I told them both the story because even though she was healing from physical pain, their pattern was the same.  They were dealing with an emotional numbing, and their healing caused them to go through a painful process of actually connecting to their pain.  I decided to write a blog post about it because this same pattern is at work in most people that come in to see me. 

For most people dealing with trauma or "negative emotions" involves numbing out or checking out.  Sometimes people use drugs or alcohol for this, but most common is just disconnecting from their bodies.  Most people learn at an early age to dissociate, disconnect and shove uncomfortable and painful things down into some dark corner where they try to forget about them.  That dark corner is actually right in our belly.  Our culture reinforces this process.  Even our spirituality and psychology frequently involves "getting over things" and letting things go.  But I think that just encourages the process of disconnection and dissociation (in the spiritual community it's called spiritual bypass).  The more we disconnect, the more upsetting things get when we get triggered

This results in a cycle of numbness/pain cycle.  At the far end of this is almost total emotional numbness.  Sometimes when I ask people how or what they feel they are genuinely puzzled, as if its an unanswerable question.  What's happening is the question itself is bringing up an uncomfortable feeling, which causes the numbness mechanisms to kick in.  

But this numbness will eventually make us sick.  Numbing is only the illusion of disconnection, because we can never really disconnect from our pain.  It's a living part of us that over time will rot and decay and cause all manner of sickness.  We can't really get over it or let it go, we can only go through it and allow spirit to transform it.  But going through it involves a real surrender, a real fear about what happens on the other side of letting go.  I used to push people more into that space, but I do that less.  I have a really deep respect for the darkness that lives inside of us and I don't want to push someone into that space if they're not really on board.  

So I called this blog post "from numbness to pain" but that's only part of the story.  When the pain and rot and decay begins transforming it actually becomes the earth from which something new and beautiful grows.  Each person has a unique growth, unique to their life circumstances and their purpose for life on this planet.  But its beautiful to watch that process happen.

On Empaths and Gurus

There's spectrum that humans exist on as it relates to our emotional life.  On one side are psychopaths. These are not the psychopaths that you're probably thinking of that you learned about from the movies--  the evil people who's existence is based on tormenting others.  The clinical definition of psychopathy is a low or even non-existent capability for internal emotions and empathy.  Its as if their emotional self is stunted or muted.  In its place is a cold rationality motivated solely by self- interest.   

On the other end of this spectrum are empaths-- people that not only feel their own emotions very strongly but pick up the emotions of others too.  By pick up, I mean that empaths can actually feel what others are feeling and process it inside themselves.  There's a lot of interesting research on mirror neurons for more on this.  If you’ve read anything about Kundalini Mediumship or have experienced it, you know that emotions are the key to the whole process of accessing our kundalini.  

What most people have learned to do in our society (starting at a young age) is try to shut down, disconnect from and judge their emotions.  This process is actually at the heart of addiction, as people try to shut out or block out the pain and suffering arising from past karma and traumatic experiences.  Kundalini Mediumship is about actually connecting to and diving into what we feel, allowing ourselves to experience the totality of our emotions.  The emotions that most people disconnect from are like the outer layer of an onion.  The fear, shame, hatred, self-loathing, all of these “negative” emotions that we try to push out or medicate away are not symptoms that we can get rid of.  In fact the more we push them away the worse they'll be when they come back.

From another perspective, these emotions are actually manifestations of our divine self trying to communicate with us.   Our emotional self is intricately connected to our spiritual core.  There is a transformative process that happens when we don’t try to change our feelings, but when we actually own them.  Paradoxically, by not trying to change or do anything other than be with them they will start to change on their own.  This is what’s at the heart of any meditation practice.  By being with our emotions and the stories that come with them we can actually journey into deeper layers of our emotional onion.  Our emotions and sensations will shift, peel away, maybe even return in a different form.  When we allow ourselves to really experience the full range of our emotions we will see that all emotions are a part of us, and at the same time not us.  And, for those of us that are empathic, we will feel a thread that connects us to everyone and everything else.  This is the true gift and curse of the empath-- to truly feel the depth of emotional interconnection which is really spiritual interconnection.  

I mentioned gurus in the title of this blog post-- so how does this relate?  Well the guru is described in ancient texts as someone who awakens our inner knowledge.  But a deeper ability of a true guru (as explained to me by Muktananda and Bhagavan Das) is to actually take in and transform their disciple’s karma.  Bhagavan Das told a story of his guru Neem Karoli Baba about this.  Neem Karoli had a lot of disciples, and a lot of people that just wanted to see or touch him, because his power was so radiant and people just wanted a taste of it.  Muktananda and his guru Nityananda were the same way.  All these gurus had a reputation for fits of anger, constantly yelling at people to go away!  

There is even a story Bhagavan Das told where a rich guy came to Neem Karoli’s temple and tried to donate money.  Neem Karoli told the rich guy to get out and take his money with him.  But the guy later snuck his money into the donation box and left the temple.  When Neem Karoli found it, he had one of his disciples track the guy down and return his money.  This sounds totally ridiculous to people in our society, right?  Someone tries to give you money and you devote a ton of time and resources trying to not to take it?  But let's look at it this way-- the rich guy was trying to buy his way out of his karma.  By giving money to Neem Karoli, he was giving away a part of his karma to him.  In every energetic exchange there is a karmic thread that binds the actors.  Its as if the universe keeps track of every bit of karma, and in the final karmic accounting the giving and receiving have to add up.  It's kind of like the spiritual version of Newton’s third law of thermodynamics-- for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.  There is no one-way transferrence of energy.  By giving money to Neem Karoli, an equal amount of his karma also had to be transferred to Neem Karoli.  At some level Neem Karoli decided that he would not accept the rich guy’s karma.  Maybe he thought the rich guy was an asshole or did not have a good heart and was self-centered.  As Bhagavan Das’ later said “this guru stuff is serious business” so don't play around with it.  I believe the same thing is true for empaths. On a certain level, by feeling and picking up others’ emotions, empaths are processing a part of others’ karma.  

There is also an interesting dynamic with empaths in that they frequently get tangled up with takers-- energy vampires, narcissists, and the aforementioned psychopaths.  So how do empaths navigate these areas?  Whats the lesson?

The lesson is to have clear and ferocious boundaries.  These boundaries are not walls that prevent us from empathy.  Some people try to build up a wall.  But you'll have to keep building and building this wall, because it will keep crashing.  Its not built on anything but a mental construct, and that takes a lot of work to keep up.  

Instead, the boundary is an intrinsic part of us based on our love of self and desire to keep ourselves spiritually healthy.  From this boundary comes a voice and a power that acknowledges the depth and seriousness of this work.  Empaths need to feel and understand others’ intentions very strongly.  We need to learn how to honor our own physical and energetic bodies and the process of karmic transference. And we need to be very clear when working with others' karma.  Just because we love someone very deeply does not mean we need to solve all their problems.  Empaths cannot be complacent, we can’t numb ourselves, we can’t check out.  We have to fully dive in and own our empathic nature.  We have to love very deeply, help people when the time is right and tell others to go away when its appropriate!  As deep as our feeling and our heart is-- that is as sharp as our claws and fangs need to be as long as we’re in a world that has deception, cruelty and hatred.

Kundalinimediumship.com is online!

This website has been over 20 years in the making.  My goal with this site is to provide a resource for people interested in kundalini awakening.  There is a lot of information (and misinformation!) about kundalini on the internet.  There are a lot of warnings, a lot of cautions, a lot of people saying it's a dangerous thing...

When I first experienced the kundalini energy as a teenager, it was a VERY destabilizing experience.  I had no resources, no one to talk to, no cultural knowledge I could rely on.  I felt very alone and very lost.

What happened was-- as a very young child I met a very evolved person named Baba Muktananda and received a kundalini transmission from him.  Nothing happened for about a decade, but then when I was a teenager, his energy hit me incredibly hard.  So many things came at me at once and I didn't know how to process them.  I reconnected with Muktananda's lineage (called Siddha Yoga) as a teen but had a lot of problems with it.  I then discovered the Afro-Brazilian tradition of capoeira, and then South American shamanism.  My devotion and dedication to learning the energies of those traditions, combined with my yogic practice provided the stability for me to engage with the kundalini in a productive way.

I started doing healing work in 2004.  Soon I realized that I was also a medium, or vessel, for the spirits that I had learned in my spiritual practices.  The healing practice of mediumship is something recognized in many parts of the world-- Latin America, and many parts of Africa and Asia in particular.  

I believe that we can all access the kundalini (and in fact many of you already have!) and I also believe we can be a medium for divine energy.  All it takes is a genuine commitment to working through our karma and trauma-- to reconnect to the parts of ourselves we've pushed away and disconnected from.

I also believe that this spiritual work is necessary for us as a species to navigate this incredibly difficult time on our planet.  The challenges we face are actually the call of the spirit world to re-engage with our own deep spiritual connection.  The spirits are using these difficulties to call us back home!

If you are having a problem navigating a kundalini awakening, please reach out.  You are not alone.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.